Feeling broken

"If my life is broken when given to Jesus, it is because pieces will feed a multitude, while a loaf will satisfy only a little lad." -Ruth Stull


God has been overwhelming me in the past few weeks, I feel at times as if I won't be able to keep my head above the water because of all that He is breaking my heart for. There is a personal aspect to this, school is very difficult, time is tight, Lyla is turning 1 this week, and I am nervous about all that has to be accomplished (including support raising) before we moving here this summer. Beyond that, I have been awakened to the reality that is child pornography on facebook and to the suffering of children around the world. If you want to perhaps get a new perspective on how blessed we truly are, I suggest you read this blog here I say this not to make anybody feel guilty about the blessings we have, but to just share my heart with you. Logan and I have a strong desire to adopt children and one day either work in or start an orphanage. This is a big vision and I know that I will need gentle encouragement along the way.


Right now I am feeling quite broken. Vance Havner says, "Brokenness is defined as being totally subdued; humbled; weakened and infirmed; crushed by grief. It's not bad to find yourself in that condition; after all...God used broken things." I am thankful for that, God truly had a purpose for everything and I can't wait to see what his purpose is for our life. My prayer is that we will all be broken at some point in our lives so that God can use us to feed the multitudes for His glory!